Shasha Loopy Love.

2009-12-09T22:52:00.003+08:00

WILL DO A PROPER UPDATE ABOUT STUFF THAT HAD BEEN GOING ON TOMORROW!
SO PLEASE DO COME BACK TOMORROW!
Hehehh. =P

xoxo

2009-12-04T22:11:00.018+08:00

"Hatred is the coward's revenge for being intimidated."

I THINK MY BLOG'S TURNING INTO DUST.
Is anybody actually reading my blog?

Sighs, because my tagboard seems to look.. DEAD. D:

OKAY, NOBODY CARES.
Eff it, I am so not looking forward to 2010. :(

& yet she still sits there smiling;
regardless of all the fake friends.
&& the dreams that were broken;
regardless of the guys she loved and the hearts that were broken.

xoxo

2009-12-03T12:57:00.021+08:00

Yesterday;
Had a fire freestyling kinda show thingy with Asyraf Iskandar, Kak Dalina J. and Kak Sari at Vivo City's sky park to celebrate Vivo City's 3rd Anniversary.
It was a private event, so Abg Sarong had to stay outside. Kesiann dia.
But we still had an extremely good time! Was instructed to play around with the fire inside the waters' while the guests and people passed by to watch us. ^^
Got an awesome view of the fireworks for like my very first time in my whole entire life!
Too bad Deeyana wasn't there. Kak Sari said she was appointed to perform in another show with her. So its alright k babe!
But we were pretty lucky to be there though. Heheh. ^^
Went off for Nasi Ayam Penyet with A.I's ibu after that. Yummeh!

But nothing could ever beat the Bornfire 2009 Festival that me, Deeyana, Asyraf Iskandar, Kak Sari and Abg Qaii were in!
We were awesome, the audience were awesome, the other dancers from those other groups were awesome, the whole show was just AWESOME!
Though we did a whole lot of mistakes in our dance performance, I don't think anybody noticed them. Heheh. :P
The greatest part was meeting new people and professionals.
There were Dai Zaobab (Japan), Fengshui (Singapore), G (England), Sean & Prisna (USA), Starlight Alchemy (Singapore).
Dai Zaobab was the most craziest, funniest, friendliest and whackiest guy I ever met.
Gonna miss him alot when he's gonna fly off back to Japan on the 14th. :(

I'm sooooo gonna miss all these moments.
But its okay, I reckon we have one more show left which is the YOG Launch held on the 8th of December. Can't wait for that!

But A.I's not gonna be in Singapore on that day till the 18th. Sighs. :(
Whose gonna ask whether I'm doing fine or not when he's not there?

After that day, I'm gonna start working and revising on my weaker subjects, start doing all my holiday assignments, start cleaning up my whole house especially me and my sister's official new room (HEHEH:P), start thinking about those MCC stuff for the Secondary One Orientation next year and start bringing myself up.

I need to at least try.

I can't always be emoishtic at most of the time.

And I so love what Dee had written in her latest blog post.

Yes, I need to take it easy yawwww.
“Your mind will answer most questions if you learn to RELAX and wait for the answer.”
I've learned that it isn't always enough to be forgiven by
others, sometimes you have to learn to forgive
yourself.
Just get back up, when love knocks you down. ;)

Huge thanks especially to Deeyana, Fiqah (my sister), Hanna, KZ (surprisingly these few days), Satria and many others I had forgotten to mention for their listening ears and always being there for me when I needed some company. <3

Plus plus, I DO WANT TO WATCH THE TWILIGHT SAGA - NEW MOON!
But I need to watch and understand the first movie first. D:

xoxo

2009-12-01T14:22:00.014+08:00

Bornfire Festival 2009 was extremely awesome!! :D

WILL UPDATE ABOUT THAT PRETTY SOON!

More pictures and video at Facebook. ;)

P/S. Asyraf Iskandar has finally created Facebook yawww! HAHAHAH. :P

xoxo

2009-12-01T22:06:00.011+08:00

" This is for the broken hearted. I know how you feel. Empty, betrayed, and no happiness whatsoever. You don't want to laugh, because you know it's not going to help, but you don't want to cry, because it will just make you feel worse. You feel like your heart is falling apart, but not only that, but you know soon your life is going to feel like it's falling apart too. You don't think it will ever end, and no matter what this person has done to you, it feels impossible to stop loving them. And everyone wonders why if they have hurt you so much, then why do you still love them. That's the confusing part, you don't know why, you just do, and the people who hurt you the most, and normally the ones you love the most. And then, after a few weeks, you finally feel a sense of relief, like you're getting happy again, but you know inside that you're just going into denial. And after a few more weeks, you're back to where you were an empty soul and teary eyes. You thought you got over them, but really, you just stopped showing it. And you can't help but to show it again. It leaves deep scars on your heart that are there forever. And no one understands how you feel, and how deep you are hurt, no matter who they are, because it hasn't happened to them And even if it has, every broken heart is different. They don't know the true pain you feel and carry each and everyday now, so you learn that basically you are alone with all this. And the feeling starts to overwhelm you, and suddenly you just break down, right there, because you know you've had enough, the tears just instantly start flowing, and you're to the point where you don't care who see's. Because you've spent so many nights lying awake in bed, and so many days being haunted by the scars and fear of rejection. And in the midst of all these tears, you know that its not helping any, and it's not going to bring them back, if you ever even had them in the first place. After about a million tears have been cried, you finally pull yourself back together and keep going. Your throat starts to clench and your eyes burn with the tears you are trying to hold back. Everyone says, "It will be okay…” But you know it won't. And that’s the truth, it won’t. And you look back on all of the hurt you had from this, and you realize that people are horrible. You're still hurt, but you've learned to hide it so that everyone thinks you are okay. So now every time you see this person, you know you still love them, and you feel a slight tingle in your heart yearning for them to love you, screaming out, but for some reason they don't hear it. And then you sit back and wonder how one person could have caused all of this...

I'm mad at myself for crying. I don't even remember the reason why but the tears keep flowing and they just won't stop. And I'm supposed to be strong but why is everything so wrong?

.. I'M SUCH A FOOL. :'(

2009-11-25T12:02:00.021+08:00

18th Nov (Last Wed) - Headed down to Bugis with my bestest homies

~ Deeyana, Hanna, Raudhah, Achap, Zurbir, Dewi, Ella and Eliza.

Watched '2012' at the movies.

Thumbs-up movie, awesome friends, awesome day. :D
Hope Eliza did enjoyed her day that day, well it was her birthday! :P

20th Nov (Last Fri) - Headed down to Sengkang to meet up with Ah Cun, Ah Teng and Ah Pekk.

Tried to solve matters with Ah Cun so that I could get them over and done with ASAP.

Some things didn't went that well but whatever, God knows.
Had some laughters with those other two funny guys though. :P
Colour rambut Ah Pekk was sungguh the awesome babe, I loike! ^^

21th Nov (Last Sat) - Headed down to AMK Ave 10 with Adi Satria, Dewi and Rahmat to watch Dewo Bayunitra's kuda kepang show.

After that, decided to 'singgah' Commonwealth for a while to watch Astina.

Stayed there for only about an hour and we decided to go back to AMK back again since Rahmat was under probation and we couldn't stay long. :P

So we continued watching Dewo back again.

Their 'mabok' were super haywire I tell you.

But interesting to watch though. (:

The rest of the days and time of mine's were mostly spent on W.A. practices for the Bornfire Festival show.
So yeah, too many practices till I've gotten sick because of unstable sleep.
38.6 degrees, beat that. :S

And all these actually made me realise something.
I hadn't been having time for my closest friends.
I'd been too busy concentrating on myself, and my complicated life story that I kinda forget to bother about my besties' problems that they are currently having.

AND I AM REALLY REALLY REALLY EXTREMELY ABSOLUTELY SORRY!!

:(

Especially to Deeyana, Hanna Haziqah and Raudhah.

I totally miss crapping, sharing secrets and stories and mostly complaining to Hanna.

I hope she's doing fine right now, although I know she kinda not. :P
But still, you have to live your life to the fullest babe!
If you want to know the truth from me, I really think that your actually a very lucky girl. :O

Trust me, all those matters that are currently happening around you are just tests from God.
Now it may be stormy, but not forever.
So please be happy, untuk kiter semuer.
Macam pernah dengar kan? Heheheh. ;)

And Deeyana!
Cheer up bbygirl!
You used to be the happiest teenager on Earth, and you will still be!
That will only happen if you start thinking positively!
Everything's not whether you get knocked down; it’s whether you get back up.
Don't ever give up okay!
Your time will come, just go with the flow.
Don't screw up the best thing that ever happened to you just because you're a little unsure about who you are. ;)

Besides them, I'm starting to miss a whole of people.

And they are going to fill up a super long list. :(
Almost a month of holidays had passed, and I still haven't gotten the time to go on a perfect outing with my dearest friends.
My holidays are sooooooooooooo unlike. -.-
MOMENT OF TRUTH: I'M FCKIN' STRESSED UP. AND I NEED TIME OFF. :'(

Oh well.
People say, " When life gives you a hundred reasons to cry, show life a thousand reasons to smile! (: "

So I guess I will try.

xoxo

2009-11-25T13:42:00.020+08:00

Southeast Asia First Ever Fire Festival ;
Bornfire 2009!

This coming Saturday, the 28th of November.
Will be held at Dhoby Ghaut Green.

Our group's performance will start at 7.30pm.
(But try to be there by 7pm, 'because the maximum capacity is 250 people per shot :P)
It's all free and it's an open event kinda thing.

Do come and support us if you want to. Bring as many people as you can!

So, don't miss out this opportunity with us! (:

xoxo

2009-11-15T16:44:00.013+08:00

The last few days were extra FUN--NEEH. LOL! :P

DANCE. DANCE. DANCE. DANCE. FIRE. FIRE. FIRE. FIRE.
Ultra tiring holidays. But pretty enjoyable when I've got my bestfriends along wherever I go! HOHOHOH. :D
And I will do a proper update when I get the pictures from Kak Sari's camera yeah? That's if she does upload those WOW(!) pictures at FB. O.O
PLUS I THINK I NEED MORE SLEEP, GAAAAAAAAH. D:

Why must sorry be the hardest word?

xoxo

2009-11-20T12:34:00.009+08:00

" I can't say 'screw him' to the guy that I have come the closest to being fully in love with. I still would do anything for him and it sucks because I know he wouldn't do the same for me. That hurts more than anything, but I just can't stop loving him.
Believe me, I've tried.

Just for the record:

You still mean everything to me.

xoxo

2009-11-10T21:21:00.015+08:00

OH SHETT, IS MY BLOG LIKE SOOOO FREAKIN' DEAD?
ARGHHHHHHHHHH!
SOMEBODY, PLEASE DO KNOCK ME ON MY HEAD.
MY BLOG'S TURNING INTO DUST, AND I SOOOO DON'T WANT THAT!
D=

Oh oh, HEY HEY HELLO! =O

First of all, my extremely biggest apologies for not updating my blog since like forever (since the 17th of October/almost a month ago to be exact).
Had been really busy with my extremely complicated/hard yet quite amazing life.
So many things had happened in just a go during these past few months.
One matter will always come after another. Sighs.
I guess God just wants/wanted to put storms into my life to test me so that He may accomplish a purpose in me.
And, that purpose is to prepare myself for greater/much more difficult things.
But I still have to keep in mind is that not all storms in my life are from God.
Many times, I can create my own storms by making my own poor decisions.
Like.. NOW. :S

As time goes by, life has a way of rearranging itself.
People enter your life, and inevitably, they leave as well.
Things have a tendency to happen that can turn your world upside down.
But eventually, you'll come to realize that even though things are different then/now, there are no mistakes in life, but only lessons to be learnt.

Though I can't deny. I really miss you, Nenek. :'(
I still can't believe that the fight for your life is already over for you.
But I know, God loves you more than I do. And there's surely a reason why He had to take you away.
And so, we shall submit to Him.
May you R.I.P in Heaven, Grandma Minah Binte Yasin.
Though we're far apart, you're always in my heart. ♥

We can never turn back the pages of time, though we may wish to relive a happy moment, or say goodbye just one last time, we never can, because the sands of time continue to fall, and we can't turn the hourglass over.
But never let the darkness of the past cover the brightness of the future.
Sometimes, no matter how much faith we have, we lose people.
But we shall/should never forget them.
And at most of the time, it's those memories that give us the strength to go and move on.
So I shall, and I will. Aminnn.

I know I made a lot of stupid mistakes in my life, but the worst one was thinking the person who hurt me the most wouldn't hurt me again.

xoxo

2009-11-11T14:55:00.020+08:00

" I remember the first day I saw you, I remember the first day we spoke. I remember the night you held me close in your arms as we listened to our song.
I remember saying 'I love you' each time we hung up the phone.
But it was the times you just looked at me.
Then I knew you would always be in my heart and nothing could ever change that.

But n0w it's like, once I sat down and looked at the situation, all the pieces lying on the floor, it just wasn't a puzzle anymore.
None of the pieces fit together.
And even if I tried really hard, the pieces, well they were two different puzzles.
He changed, I've changed.
We never stop quarelling, this just ain't right.
That's why I think I have to do it, and he needs to understand that.

I'm sorry, Muhammad Haikal Bin Roslan. :(
If your gonna make me cry, at least be there to wipe away the tears.

xoxo

2009-09-22T21:02:00.011+08:00

Eid Mubarak!
May the Guidance and Blessings of Allah
Be With You and Your Family..

Maaf Zahir dan Batin.

HAVE AN AWESOME LEBARAN YOXZZZ! ;D

Plus, I will be very very very VERY BUSY with my life after this.
And I'm being serious. EOY EXAMS ARE COMING!!
SCHOOL STRESS babe.
So I guess I will not be updating my blog that much after I've finish up this post.
Hehh, sorry! D:

xoxo

2009-10-17T14:33:00.019+08:00

Happy 15th Birthday to my most BESTEST FRIEND IN THE WHOLE WIDE WORLD/a.k.a my Deeyonce =P,

Nurul Diyana Binte Hashim!

May you have an everlasting flow of happiness!
May your wishes and big dreams come true!
Thank you for always believing in me, always being by my side, being our Ustazah, being our laughing gas, being the music to our ears, being our mak/bapak/nenek/datok/kakak/abang/bitching partner at the same time and so much more.
Just thank you for everything, and especially for being a part of my life.
Semoga kau panjang umur dan sentiasa murah rezeki.
2 years and still counting, let's hope our friendship will still go on strong!
Oh yeah, don't stress too much on whatever things that are happening around you okay.
Always remember that I will always be here for you no matter what happens.
And you'll always be a gift of a friend. ♥
Do enjoy your day today!

So yeah, EOY Examinations has finally ended. Like phewwww~

IT'S TIME TO DANCE!
IT'S TIME TO GET BACK ON TRACK!
Heheheh. ^^

YAYYYYXZZZZ I'M BACK!! WOOHOO~

But I will update more pretty pretty soon yeah!
At the mean time..

HAPPY DEEPAVALI TO WHOEVER'S CELEBRATING! :D
K, video and wish no link. HAHAHAH.

xoxo

2009-09-15T21:00:00.015+08:00

Happy 12th Birthday to my partner in crime, my gaduh-gaduh tak tentu pasal bachinn, my bitching partner too, my bestfriend, my lil sister, my forever - everything!

(150909)

A sister is someone who loves you from the heart,
No matter how much you argue you cannot be drawn apart.
She is a joy that cannot be taken away,
Once she enters your life, she is there to stay.

When she is by your side, the world is filled with life,
When she is not around, your days are full of strife.
A sister is a blessing, who fills your heart with love,
She flies with you in life with the beauty of a dove.

With a sister you cannot have a grudge,
She is as sweet as chocolate and as smooth as fudge.
Having a sister is not just a trend,
It is knowing you can always turn to her, your very own best friend.

I love you sister,
more than you will ever know.
You are my other half,
with you I am a whole.

Plus, all the best for your PSLE yoxzzzz!
Dahh besar seyy budak tu, but your still shorter than me by 1cm anyway! HAHAHAH. :P
Jangan lupa ingat belajar eh, asyik nak merayap aje tau ni anak. HAHAH.
Padan muka celebration kena tunggu sampai this Sunday, MWAHAHAHAH!

LOL k bye aku evil. =P
Will try to update about things that has happened during the last few days hopefully in my next post aye?
See you awesomers around!

xoxo

2009-09-28T20:38:00.013+08:00

" Love.. is a feeling you feel when you feel that your going to feel a feeling that you've never felt before.

So its like.. he's not the brightest working crayon in the box.
But he'll still be my favorite color ♥ .

OH AND I SHALL GO M.I.A AFTER THIS.
I promise I'll come back after EOY Examinations are over and done with yeah?
See you around readers!
Happy-happy selalu! (:

xoxo

2009-09-11T16:47:00.007+08:00

Happy 15th Birthday to my dearest mambang,

Nurul Natasha aka Nanat!
Happy 14th Birthday to my dearest God-sister,

Diyanah too!

May you have an everlasting flow of happiness!
And may your wishes and dreams come true!
Semoga korang berdua panjang umur dan sentiasa murah rezeki.
Thank you for always being there for me, I don't know what I will do without you both!
I sincerely apologise for not being able to attend your celebration tonight Naaat, well I thought I could but my dad.. Sighs.
And Dyna, even if we're kinda far apart now, you'll always be my bbysister alright? (:
Oh well, all the best in your future yoxzzz!
Love you forever & always besties! <3
:D

xoxo

2009-09-11T15:17:00.008+08:00

Break-fasted with Dewi and Rahmat at Shasha Pooh's house around Yishun area yesterday.
HUHUHXZZ!
IT WAS SUNGGUH GEREK TO THE MAX!! ;D

Urghhh, sumpah I have super huge arms and super masai hair semalam.

Oh great. Now you can call me.. 'FATTY'. =.=

POOH'S HOUSE'S ROSE SYRUP DRINK = SUPER EXTRAORDINARY!! ^^

HAHAH. Jakon betol. =P

Oh yeah, thanks to my dearest twinnie Shasha Pooh for yesterday!

We totally had an awesome time.
Hope to meet you again soon yeah?
Love you to the extreme core and oh, tell your mum that she's super gorgeous lahh siullxzzz! HEHEH. :D

Before I forget, check out this video (if you want to lahh) of Rahmat singing a cover of the song 'Nurain' to Pooh! HOHOH.
Just for the sake of entertainment and fun. (:

Physics homework still not done yet k WTFISH. =.=

xoxo

2009-09-07T21:41:00.014+08:00

K, Blogger's not allowing me to upload any pictures of today. Stuppiddddd. =.=

Had MCC dance practice from 9am to 1pm today.
It was pretty tiring since the most of us were fasting, but at the same time it was pretty fun since I got a chance to choreograph some dance moves which I thought was soooo freakin' easy for them but my members kept denying and complained that it was actually pretty hard!
Tsk tsk. ALAHAIII. D:

So I walked around AMK Hub with Deeyana, Dewi, Hanna, Nanat, Syafreak and Zurbir for a while after practice. Oh, Adi tagged along too lahh siullxzzz! :)
Everybody excluding Hanna headed to Syafreak's house afterwards since we had nothing better to do. And I still missed hanging out with bestfriend Syafreak anyway! Hehehh.
His flat totally looked like a condominium and it was like 40 floors high. :O
I had never seen that kind of flat before, I swear.
And his house was super comfortable. I rather stay there than my own house.
HAHAHAH K FAKE. :P
Everybody cozied ourselves at his house's sofa and watched 'Jangan Pandang Belakang Congkak' together while Syafreak went down to meet his friend at the flat's garden on the 16th floor I think.

K so, at the very beginning of the movie aje Dee already claimed that she saw a girl standing at the house's gate.
We, kita, us, all were like super scaredy cats. Nobody dared to close the door. D:
Lepas berapa minit, check-check it was actually Syafreak's friend from Sriwana who also came by his house who wasn't that sure whether that was his house.
-.-
Buat maluuuu aje ada dua budak lelaki dalam rumah tuu. HAHAH. :P

So, yeah. Halfway during the movie, me and Zurbir went down to the 16th floor to meet Syafreak and his friend, Haikal for a while.
We chatted for abit then Syafreak sent his friend home while me and Zurbir went back up.
Ooh, and guess whaaaaaat?
Zurbir and I lifted ourselves to the wrong floor. And we knocked and pranked the wrong house.
Paiseyyy giler siaaa kitaaa! It was super funneeh I tell you. :P
K then we continued crapping/singing/dancing/partying/slacking at Syafreak's house till about 5pm then everybody MRTed home afterwards.
My sister and I break fasted at my dad's house today. Awesome. (:

Oh BTW, to the perempuan bertabung amal tuu.
Seriously, your sarcastic remarks were not needed by us, at all.
Mind you, we're SYAFREAK'S FRIENDS.
SO OPEN YOUR EYES BIG-BIG AND TAKE NOTE ON WHO YOUR TALKING TO EHH. =.=

Oh yeah, good luck to you people who are currently taking your N's!

Do your very best! :D

Right.. confirm korang sungguh tak sanggup nak baca blog post gini pei panjang. -.-
Mintak maaf lahh ye.

xoxo

2009-09-08T19:58:00.029+08:00

Homies Adi, Deeyana, Dewi, Nanat and Rahmat came by my house today. (:
Invited Hanna, Iskandar, Syafreak and Zurbir as well but the four of them couldn't make it because they had other plans.

Watched 'The Eye 10' and 'Anak Halal' together while Adi and Rahmat helped cut my mum's almonds for her chocolate chip cookies the moment they all reached my house.
LOL! That sounds soooooo wrong I know. :P
Deeyana's reactions to the 'Anak Halal' movie was super priceless I tell you. HAHAH!
Dahlah kita dua sungguh benci dengan si Fasha Sandha tu, there were a whole lot of killings and shitxzzz in the movie which were really terrifying if they were in real life we both thought. :O
But overall, it was a freakin' good movie though! Hehh. ;D

They all took turns to use my house's computer.
We even webcammed with Hanna and KZ. ^^
Hanna could go crazy just by watching my house's Chinese Golden Cat, the un-alive one which moves its right hand up and down every second. HAHAH.
I guess Nanat was abit frustrated because she couldn't seem to transfer any of the songs from my computer to her Ipod, and to make it even worst, I too didn't have any idea why.
Hehh, sorry lehh babe!
Rahmat, plus my sister and Dewi played our PS2 in the room as well.
They kept shouting and screaming when playing the games like nobodys' business yo. :P
Adi and Rahmat then slacked at my house till about 6.30pm while the rest headed home earlier.

Thanks a whole lot for coming over you guys!
Hang out again pretty soon! :D

And here I am now typing from my dad's house's computer because my sister is currently using the one at my mum's house. -.-

Gosh, 5 more days till the end of September Holidays! D:
L.O.L.

THAT HOLE AND HIS GUITAR.

xoxo

2009-09-02T11:28:00.013+08:00

Some Pictures of Yesterday:

Ain Chinnoneh invited me, Abg Halif, Abg Syahiir, Hid, Aini and some others to break fast at her house yesterday.
Sadly, Hid and Aini couldn't make it due to some reasons.
So there left only the four of us.
But we still had an awesome time!

Though we reached her house like sooo effin late, like around 7.40pm.

Bila the family tengah sembahyang ponxzzz. D:
We waited for Abg Halif for about an hour to arrive at YCK MRT/Admiralty MRT, check-check dia dekat Dhoby Ghaut. -.-

Was so frustrated with him at that point of time.
Biasa ahh tu anak, SENTIASA LEMBAB! Grxzzr!
Oh, and we're really sorry Ain! Insyaallah, kita akan buat lagi. HAHAH! ^^
Went to her house, had Nasi Lemak! It was sooooo freakin' delicious I tell you! :D
Abg Halif nak step malu-malu went eating at the beginning, but he ended up taking 4 pieces of chicken wings while me and Abg Syahiir took only 3. LOL! :P
Chatted, crapped, joked around and I swear to God budak baju hijau dan budak baju merah sungguh the-lame.com lah please? HAHAHAH. :P
Ain's lil brother, Fathir, was sooooooo cute I tell you! Like seriously, felt like bringing him back home. (:
Stayed till about 9.30pm and headed to Macs near the MRT afterwards.
Abg Syahiir kept playing with the lighters. D:
Slacked for about half an hour then we all headed back home.
Abg Halif teman aku balik rumah seperti biasa. ^^
Reached home at around 11pm.

Hope Chinnoneh had an awesome time!
Invite us more often tau? Hehehh!
\m/ to my G.brothers! :D

xoxo

2009-09-06T23:28:00.016+08:00

'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,

I got over you.

So I know.
That there's an answer, if you reach into your soul.
And the sorrow that you know, will melt away.

Like.. finally.

xoxo

2009-09-04T20:00:00.018+08:00

LET.ME.JUST.CRY.MY.HEARTS.OUT.FOR.NOW.

I'm sorry, Syafreak.
I'm sorry, Rafqi.
I'm sorry, Zurbir.
I'm sorry, Mama, Papa, Fiqah and Abang.
I'm sorry, Homies.
I'm sorry, Iskandar.

I'm really sorry, everybody. :(
I know I have not been a very good person all this while.
Everybody's just so frustrated with me nowadays.
Just leave me behind, I know I'm hopeless to you guys.

I hate myself, for being like this..

I REALLY DO. -.-"

The chances to meet somebody like you were a million to one.
Please, come back.
I miss you,
bestfriend.
Like so much.
:'(
If you feel this, you'll know I'm referring to you.

And I got all the symptoms, of a girl with a broken heart.

xoxo

2009-09-04T18:11:00.025+08:00

Pictures of the last few days:

So today is the last day of school for this term.
And let me just tell you, it was a freakin' bore. -.-
Luckily there were Dewi, Iza and Nanat who I could actually spend time with after school.
Hehh, love you babes. :D

Oh yeah, got my report slip back today.
From 5 out of 7 failures, to only.. 3!
Yippeexzzzzz. A bit of improvement I guess. (:
Alhamdulillahh.
Though I still need to work harder next term.
I have to start revising already. Hehhh!

Okay, I'm just not in the mood to blog much today.
Follow me on Plurks alright?
Really sorry readers.. D:

Do enjoy your One Week HOLIDAYS though!

I'm losing grip, what's happening? :'(

xoxo

2009-08-31T20:09:00.014+08:00

Went to Geylang with my mum last Saturday night and my whole family last Sunday night.
Bought some stuff, bought our Baju Raya already! WOOHOOXZZZZ! :D
Mine's blue in colour yoxzzzz!
Ada sesiapa yang sama colour dengan aku tak? Yippxzzzzzz!
Saw a whole lot of familiar faces from school too. (:
Those two nights were fun, aku dengan adik aku suka nahh kacau-kacau orang lain. HAHAH.

Today, had a super boring Aces Day Workout in the morning and Teachers Day Celebration at school after that till about 10.30am.
Mr Jay Loh and Mr Neo Gim Khoon rocks! XD
Finally got to meet up with Abg Syahiir and the rest of the already Graduated Seniors outside the staffroom for a while. ^^
Thanks Zurbir and Iskandar for helping me distribute the chocolate-chip cupcakes which my mum had help me make for my subject teachers. (:
Me, Dewi, Iskandar, Nanat, Rau and Rahmat decided to follow Deeyana and Hanna to their previous school which was Guangyang Primary School.
It was super hilarious to walk around the school and passing all those cute lil P1 and P2 kids' classes dan buat macam tu sekolah kita sendiri. HAHAHAH. :P

We left Dee and Hanna there and headed to Ang Mo Kio Primary at around 1.30pm.
By the time we reached there, we weren't allowed to go inside the school already.
And I don't know why? o.O
A lot of my Primary School homies' didn't come down/turn up, especially my bbygirls due to some reasons I guess?
Oh well, its okay. Hope to meet them pretty soon though, because I miss them like so much! :(
Still met up and chatted with my adik-adiks from the school. ^^
Met up and hung out with Rafqi and the gang at the block in front of our school for a while.
Plus, I'm really really sorry for bailing out on you guys in the end.
I owe you guys an apology, I know. Outing pretty pretty soon yeah? :(

Nanat, Rahmat and Rau headed home after that because I guess they were already too tired of waiting for me finish all my struts by then. :P
Accompanied Dewi and Iskandar in the bus back home while I decided to meet up with Ain Chinnoneh and Fiqah (Ain's friend) at AMK Hub since they were around AMK area after that.
Crapped and chatted at the fountains at the basement. Headed to Masjid Al-Mutaqqin to take bubur masjid afterwards.
Went back to Hub to meet up with Abg Halif. The girls both stayed with me and crapped with him for a while.
Me and Abg Halif headed back to the Mosque to buy some drinks and kuih for buka Puasa later on.
Ooh yeah, guess whaaaaaaaaat?
We ended up WALKING back home together, and we both live like around 4-7 stops away from the Hub. -.-
Sumpah I tell you, I thought I was about to faint. D:
Stoooopid Abg Halif nak save 55cents punye pasal.
Penat nak mampos punye pasal, we stopped and rested at the block just right beside my flat for a few minutes.
Then Abg Halif finally sent me back sampai directly dekat depan pintu gate rumah aku. :P

Half an hour later.. break fast lah canxzzz!? YOOHOOXZZZ!
My mum brought my favourite oixzzz, Chicken Ban Mian!
Aminn! ^^

Currently chatting with Hykel Tupai at this moment.
~ hi.crazy.hole.com
Mehh siniiiiiii ahhh! :P

Will be break fasting at Ain Chinnoneh's crib tomorrow probably after meeting with _____ at somewhere.
Hope Hid and Sasa will be able to make it because my two God-Bros will be going there with me too! :D

K super boring long post for today I know. O.O
What to do? Sigh-oh.

xoxo

2009-08-29T13:37:00.022+08:00

Over For Now

I knew someday it would have to end
I knew eventually I would have to go back to calling you 'friend'
It's killing me that now that day has come
If it's for the best then where is this pain from
I know deep inside that this is what I had to do
but it's breaking my heart to walk away from you
I'm trying my best to appear strong
but it's hard when part of me says that in your arms is where I belong
I still love you with all my heart
that's not going to change even though we're far apart

You were my first love and my first kiss
There are so many of our special times I'm going to miss
All the words I ever said or wrote still hold true
But for now from a distance is where I'll be loving you
I think you need me as a friend to help you through
because there are things I can't control that are hurting you
We both have issues no one knows of
neither of us had the strength to be true to our love
Maybe we will be together again if it was meant to be
but for now just please don't stop loving me

Even though I'm not your girlfriend I'll still be here
With a shoulder to cry on or a sympathetic ear
The story of love can be quicker than the blink of an eye
But our story of won't be over until the day that we die

- Lesley W.

Hard as I try I know I can't quit,
something about you is so addictive.

P/S. Whatever it is, your still a super SELFISH guy. HAHAH.

xoxo